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After some five years of the mystifying experiences I called `physical dreams` (but now I know were actually `etheric out-of-body projections`), I found Buhlman`s and Monroe`s books and got myself some reasonable tools to deal with these inexplicable nightly occurrences.
I knew what I was dealing with now and what to say for more clarity and also what to do in order not to go back into my sleeping body, so with all this new arsenal of information, my out of body experiences took a different turn. I was not touching things as I was before in such physical way that I couldn’t believe I was asleep, and I was not so focused on dispersing negative energies around me, as a true ghost buster. Rather, I started flying and passing through walls. This was a first for me.
So this is how a new chapter in my `night-life` started !
This particular night, just before sleep and just out of nowhere, these words of Prayer took form and voice, and so I prayed : `
“I AM HERE TO MANIFEST YOU, LORD.
I NEED TO BE LOVE TO MANIFEST YOU, LORD.
MAKE ME “LOVE”.”
Now as always, let my Journal speak !
April 25, 2010 1 am.
I prayed so spontaneuosly:
“I AM HERE TO MANIFEST YOU, LORD. I NEED TO BE LOVE TO MANIFEST YOU, LORD. MAKE ME “LOVE”.”
Then as I tried to sleep, but couldn’t, I got up and went to the bathroom. Came back to bed, did the Dream Paraliminal CD, then took the earphones out.
Kind of feeling something may be happening. Had been having light vibrations since after 11.30 pm.
Now, vibrations are a new thing for me. Wonder if it is because of the influence of the OBE books. Before reading all these books, I never felt any vibrations at all, just found myself in the center of my room and sooooo out of body.
1.30 am. OBE
Again, without any vibration, I am conscious of moving out of my body, just a slight shoulder twist and up sitting on the bed.
The separation is smooth. No sounds, no strong vibrations, just OUT like that.
But after this, things are not smooth at all.
Find myself near the ceiling, but not really in control, then I fly down closer to the floor, and go around the perimeter of my room in circles, like a merry-go-round. (mmm, very funny …)
Then I am up near the ceiling again, also going round and round but feels like I don`t know well what I`m doing. (Also the very first time that this happened, several months ago, I was going around my chandelier like forever, like stupid forever!!!)
I squeeze my eyes, just as when you watch a scary movie, because I am afraid that if I see my sleeping body, I may be sucked back in. I don`t want to go back into my body, want to try some more of this.
Then I recall Buhlman`s words that I should say “Awareness now” or “Clarity now “, and I do so, but the result is not as good or as strong as I thought.
I am still in my room and struggling for control, but finally do manage to fly up again near the ceiling and joyfully start cavorting in the air for the pure pleasure of it. I love this !!! I feel like a kid!
Maybe feeling more confident, decide it is safe to open my eyes completely, and see if I can really see my sleeping body in the bed. I am still afraid I may go back into my body if I see it, but I try anyway.
At this moment I am near the ceiling just above the upper frame of my bedroom door, and from there I look down, and there I am !! wow . What can I say …
Under the covers of my bed, there is the silhouette of a body with a foot and an arm sticking out of the bedcovers. I can`t see my face though, it`s too dark and the bed is too far, and besides, the face is looking the other way.
I am thrilled that I can really see me and still be in the air, so I decide to try go downstairs. Actually I want to try say “Universe”, but don`t feel too confident in my astral navigation system ( 🙂 !), and abort this plan .
As I start to move, I remember Buhlman said I could pass through walls if I wanted, but I somehow hesitate. I am afraid of trying and not succeeding. Then kind of pull myself together and look at the wall with determination. I start by pressing my right shoulder against it and push. Then push some more. Feel some resistance at first, but then wow! I simply go through !! I am elated at this, that it is all true and that I can do it. Decide to `fly` downstairs and go to the entrance hall.
Here I am struggling to stay OBE, so I try to concentrate on out-of-body things, don’t remember well here, but I am finally able to go out of the house. Before I know it, I am in my garden and for some reason, I start going up and up at extreme speed all the while repeating (maybe afraid ??) “I love you God” over and over again.
It all feels like a blur and it`s kind of a bit vague here. Then it feels like I`m being pulled back to my body, but I am actually rather hovering just above it. I am desperately trying not to go in yet. Then I go in, but know /feel I can go out again, and so I do. For a while, I seem to be playing at going in and out, several times in a row, don’t know why, but then I wake up inside the body.
Big points :
Moving out smoothly
Not good control of flying
Flying in circles
Seeing myself from above in bed
Getting some control, happily cavorting near the ceiling (and maybe in the sky too, but it`s only a vague remembrance here)
Passing through the wall
Repeating “I love you God”
Well, not truly exhilarating as many of those OBEs stories I read about, but a new start for sure.
Different from my `physical dreams` (etheric projections) where everything is so very physical and the me in there is so super-focused and like on a true mission. In this experience, I am much more conscious of being `me`, clearly remembering all I had read in Bulhman`s and Monroe`s books.
Thinking so rationally, so logically, so …with my brain. With the exception that my brain was in the bed sleeping with me ….mmmm… so what ? we don`t need the brain to think ????? but really ?? WOW! Who is thinking then?? WHO IS THE THINKER ??
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