We are not all given the same things~ The Souls’ Race dream

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Again allow me to share a page from my little book “FOAL and the Angels” to talk about something that is very close to my heart …the seemingly unfairness of life. Mmm, that`s a heavy topic, and I guess most of us can relate. Why is it that some people seem to sail through life as easily as a breeze, while others have to toil about and struggle to simply breathe some air ?
I don’t presume to have all the answers, because I have not, but I know that dreams have helped me deal with this in an unambiguous and uncanny way.
For instance, when I `received` this dream , which I called `The Souls` Race`, I had been in a place, a mind-place, where I could hardly think of anything else. `Why has it to be all so unfair?`

And as it goes, a few nights later I got this `clarification` dream, a huge, HUGE `Teaching Dream`. It always baffles me how dreams are able to impart teachings in such way that they seep down under our skin in such unassuming and yet uncannily profound way.
How do `they` do it ? how do we do it ? Is it our brain, our subconscious, our Higher Self, is it God or the Angels, or is it our mind … but yet, what exactly IS our mind ?? Well, again and most unfortunately, I don’t know. But I know that when I get a dream like this, I feel like I KNOW (true capital letters).

I feel like I don’t have the answers, and yet I KNOW.

I KNOW somewhere else than my mind, I KNOW in a place inside me that I haven`t found yet, a place still mysterious and inaccessible yet to me.

My mission in life is to find this place of KNOWLEDGE, the place or part of me that KNOWS.

So, why do we suffer in such way? I asked.
And there in my head I heard it so very clearly ( right !…forgot to tell you that I hear voices in my head, lol!) … a quick and laconic answer:

`YOU SUFFER , BECAUSE YOU COMPARE`

Wow, that gave me pause. I think my heart skipped a beat. This statement alone had the power to stop my thinking process for a few moments.

We know Truth when we hear it. And yet … can we live without comparing ? Can we ?

If we didn’t know the others` lot, would we be more accepting of our own lot ? If  we could stop comparing what `others` have or what we had `before`,  could we finally concentrate on the joys hidden in this very moment of Life?

Does a plant in the desert long for a better life, does it long to live by a riverside
warm in the daytime cool at night   with a rainfall every week or so,
and butterflies or bees visiting her petal brows …..

But can we long for something we have never seen,
can we complain for having not                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              something we have never known to exist
Does a plant have its own world of dreams …….

But I digress… :-), here is the dream ! (excerpt from FOAL and the Angels):

THE SOULS` RACE

“From above, Foal could see the sea and a large sandy beach. A race was going on. People were all racing on the sand toward the same goal, but in an odd way.
They were not starting all together, and in addition to that, each of them had to do some different steps and chores on the way to the goal.
Some of them had to pick up something with their mouth; others held a huge heavy package with both hands on their belly, while still others had their hands free and no burden at all. A few were holding strangely shaped objects and doing strange things that Foal didn’t fully understand.

Some others seemed to be bound together at the leg so they had to run in pairs, and some had to pick up something from the ground on the way to the finish line. But then some guys were running unencumbered and didn’t have to play any strange games.
Foal was baffled. It looked so unfair. The most amazing thing to him was that they were not even all starting at the same time. On top of that, a few looked like they started several yards ahead, and others began a few yards behind the starting line. Foal couldn’t understand the rules of this race. What kind of game was this? Was nobody there setting any decent rules?
Foal woke up bewildered an utterly incredulous. He knew what he had seen and understood what he had been shown, but he just could not accept it.

It represented a concept staggering to his mind and he felt himself rebelling against it.
`God! It is so unfair !`he exclaimed.”

Reflections :
Well, after this, FOAL goes on, recalcitrant and resisting as he was, being vastly lectured on life`s “unfairness” by the story-character of God Supreme, who literally gives him a great piece of His/Her Universal Mind ! 
But for the moment I`ll leave it at this. Wouldn’t want to spoil the book for you !;-)  (Please, please understand that I’m not trying to boost sales here. It is so totally not in my character and I am just teasing ;-).  No need for you to buy the book…that is ….unless you are truly interested in it)

Now, back to our reflections …                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                So, if we can’t have all the cake, the trick may lie in endeavoring to make our own little cake along the way, step by step, or baby-step by baby-step.

Some people have more, some people have less, or that`s how we see it.  But we all have our own gifts for sure. We must accept we are not all given the same things.  However, they can be improved on.

And THAT is the true beauty of it, that is what makes so precious whatever it is that we are given and why we should not belittle what we have.
Let`s cherish what we have, let’s not look at what is lacking, but what is so full there.  Yes! my mind says “Let us stop comparing!”…

Thinking about it doesn’t seem so difficult after all, and yet …. why does it prove to be such a huge trial ?

 

 

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“Go inside……

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The Angel of NOW ( from “FOAL and The ANGELS”)

“Foal, this is the Angel of Now.
I am a feminine energy, because I talk of Home.
To be in the Now is to be HOME.
Do you not see… when your thoughts wander, when you are distracted, when your worries take you to a future that still does not exist in your life, there is nobody HOME.
When your guilt or regrets or nostalgias take you to a past that has ceased to exist in your life, there is nobody HOME.
Your body feels like a shell – nobody HOME.

BE HOME. Be in there, be in that moment, be in your body.
Inhabit your Soul-place, inhabit your Soul-body. Be there in each Now.
That is the meaning of Now.
To be HOME is the moment of Now.
Be present in your body, fully inhabit your vessel. Inhabit your cells.
Be HOME.
When I knock on your door, I expect you to be HOME.
Welcome guests arrive when you’re HOME. Waiting on them is your greatest pleasure. They come from afar; they wish to find you HOME.
You are “Who-you-Are” when you are HOME.
HOME is your center.
HOME is the center of the Universe, center of you that is God.
Foal, will you be home for me?”

 

 

 

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`How a Crystal sings in other dimensions`, an enchanted Out-Of –Body Experience

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Since most of my early OBEs were mainly about having `energy bouts` with some unkind astral entities, this beautiful experience was a welcome change and made me see how inspiring and mind blowing OBEs could be. There is indeed so much more to the astral than meets the eye, and I am finding out more with each new experience.

I value these experiences so much. The most transcendent moments of my life happened in dreams. The sense of connection with some part of me which is Higher and wiser, and with all the rest of Creation, the incredibly vivid landscapes, the living colors and sounds, and all the Love poured out in there are to me pure sublime experiences.

In 2006, when this particular experience took place, I still had no `OBE` term in my vocabulary, so I used to call them `physical dreams` to make a distinction from my `normal` dreams.

Now, once again, from my Dream Journal….how I met an old tiny but powerful friend…:

 

June 9, 2006    11.30 pm.     Almost Full Moon

Just after falling deeply, so deeply asleep.

Again one of those `asleep experiences` I call “physical” dreams . They usually start from the same position I am in bed and everything is so REAL and it feels exactly as if everything is happening in my room and in that very moment. 

 So I am sleeping in my bed, when M.S. (my good and huge friend from Germany) comes and sits by the side of my bed on a small chair that is not actually there in `waking reality`.  He is wearing a white drape-toga-like-garment, with short sleeves with a slit, and long to his ankles, with a loose rope at the waist.  I sit up on my bed in one smooth movement , leaving effortlessly and so nonchalantly  my physical body behind (and asleep !).

I am a bit surprised to see him. What is he doing here ? `How` is he here ?

I see that on his arm he is wearing a thin and simple one-string bracelet with just one small crystal in the middle. The crystal looks so tiny on his big arm. He starts telling me a bit about his trip with his wife I.Z. in Europe , and then quite suddenly he says :

“ But you must listen to this “

And he slowly lifts his arm and puts his wrist, where the bracelet’s crystal is, to my ear and, to my great astonishment, I hear the most incredible and beautiful sound …!

  The Crystal is singing …! It is literally singing into my ear …

Such a trill, so pure, so high, so full of joy. Pure joy.

A very high and strong sound, like the trill of water turned into music, into a stunning melody.

 

It was strange. It was definitely one sound, but it felt and sounded like a symphony .

I have never heard anything like it, and I can`t explain in understandable words how unearthly it was.

The feeling that it was singing for me was intimate and wonderful, full of Love and Joy at the same time.

Like meeting an old friend again after a longtime …

 

The trill sound goes on, possibly for a few minutes, and it gets stronger and stronger , higher and higher until it starts hurting the inside of my ears; still it is so beautiful, that I do not want to acknowledge the starting discomfort. Until I do… but I don’t remember well here.

Next thing I know, M.S. is not there anymore, and I am walking in my room in this `other` body, and my room is the same but also slightly different. As I look around, I see a plant in a vase on a high shelf near a little window (which is actually not there in my real room).

It is a luscious , beautifully green plant with, at the end of its 3 long thick leaves, 3 big buds of flowers, or fruits (??). They look like parts or extremities of the leaves themselves. (Maybe a tropical plant ??)

The curtain of the little window is half drawn and from there suffused golden light is shining on the plant. It is actually an amazing sight, so surreal. Like it is snowing golden powder of Light on it. It looks as if particles of gold are floating over its leaves. It feels so beautiful and peaceful . Yes, especially peaceful .

 Then, close to it, I see another vase, more rectangular in shape, with a plant which instead has been cut to the very stem. Yet from the soil I can see so many new buds or stems coming out again, stronger and stronger. I look at it in a stupor. I know I am being told/shown something important. As if life that had been cut, comes back again and again, stronger and stronger. Indestructible.

 I wake up with these images burnt on my retina, so vivid in my eyes .

 

 Reflections:

The whole dream was full of good Energy and a wonderful feeling. (and by the way, so glad that this time I didn`t need to be my usual ghost-buster self 🙂 …)

First, the Crystal Song, then the 3 big buds with golden light shining on them, and then Life always re-generating itself, even if cut down.  Yet, I’m still amazed at the sound of the Crystal . I could hear it so clearly, so distinctly, so real.

 I have never heard anything more beautiful or powerful.

The first trill reminded me of the Water trill-sound Arjuna (a sound artist I know) makes. Arjuna’s Voice of Water. Then it became much stronger than that, and more like a one-sound symphony (which in human terms doesn`t make sense) ; and at one point my ear could not take it anymore…

I realize our ears are not ready for such pure sound yet.

And the suffused light powder, like miniscule golden flakes outpouring Love essence, this Divine feeling …  a strong sense of sacred again. This has shown up so often of lately, both in my dreams and in this kind of strange experiences.

The sense of SACRED. Of pure sacred beauty, of Love, of peace.

Of course ,  I woke up in a bliss.

 

 

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“Life is….

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“LIFE IS A DEED OF TRUST”

“GOD TRUSTED YOU WITH LIFE”

When I first received these words, I was totally overwhelmed by the sheer power of the statement.

Just a few syllables, but enough to turn my world upside down.

You see, as it happens, I was raised in a catholic culture and for many years went to catholic school, where it was obligatory to take religion classes.

If memory serves me, in all those classes, I was always being taught I had to trust in God, to trust He knows better, to trust He knows all, to trust He will take care of me, and so on. Not once had I heard that God trusted me, not only that, but that He trusted me with LIFE !!!

This statement was to me as mind-blowing as eye-opening, mm, more than that, make it heart-opening. It opened my heart, completely and irrationally, it opened the way to the knowledge that comes through the heart.

As it is, rationally, I couldn’t quite follow, but deep inside me these profound sounds resonated like a booming truth, like nothing else had before.

All those many hours of religion classes wiped away in one clean stroke !

And then, when I was still struggling to follow and absorb, there came the final statement:

“YOU WERE BORN BECAUSE YOU WERE TRUSTED”

…………….. Second wave of blissful astonishment washing over me … I was born because I had been trusted …. ??? WOW!!

My mind felt like splitting open like the Red Sea in an effort to absorb this new kind of knowledge in all its profundity. I needed to spend some time alone with these words, some quiet time alone with these words.

I closed the door of my room and meditated. I needed some time to digest all this, I felt the need to make it mine, to pull its essence /teaching/truth into every fiber and cell of my body. And to see where it was taking me. 

And then, for the first time, I really kind of saw it.

Just as God had trusted me with life, He was also trusting me now with the writing of this little book, `His` little book.

All He was gently imparting to me in dreams and waking meditations could not be meant for me only; I could not be given all this and not share it.

He was telling me this was part of the LIFE He had trusted me with.

How could I let His trust down?

I think this is the very moment when FOAL and the Angels was conceived, as a book , I mean, and not as a bundle of uncoordinated pages of messages and dreams .

 

 

 

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SLEEP PARALYSIS…how I always fought it (had no clue it was the harbinger of an OBE)

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“Again, it`s happened again. As I fall asleep, I feel as if I shut my extremely heavy eyelids and fall into a tunnel of deep sleep. Then a mini-second later I re-open them and `there` I am , in this strange `atmosphere` ! It feels like gravity has become a millionth time stronger, and it is very dark around me and the air feels heavy, as if somebody is trying to hold me down, to pin me down, and the whole of me resists it and fights back. And although it takes enormous effort on my part to move even only one inch, I always seem to win this strange inexplicable battle and start moving around on my bed and in my very bedroom as if I were totally awake and conscious. Strangely enough, although at first I need all my strength to be able to move my arms and body, once I start moving, I can move and glide at extreme speed”.   

These are words from my Dream Journal of some ten years ago….when I could not explain what was happening to me at night.

In my search for an explanation I started buying books on dreams and related topics in the hope of finding something similar to my own experiences.  And I  did indeed bump into the word OBE or Astral Projection several times, but I always dismissed it because of the associated symptoms of being paralyzed (as in Sleep Paralysis), of hearing loud noises or buzzing, of having strong vibrations all through your body, or else seeing strange visions at times demonic, ghostly etc.

I simply could not relate to any of it, since none of this had actually ever happened to me, except maybe for the demonic ghostly visions, but at that time, more than visions, they were more like energy fields kind of `fighting` me, or at least this is how I processed it at the time.

So, unfortunately, I discarded too quickly the possibility that I was having out of body experiences, and went on searching. What a waste of time, I must say.  This is actually the reason why it took me five long years to find a book that made me finally realize that I needed look no further, and that what I was experiencing were indeed out of body experiences.

Until a few months ago, before joining some Astral Groups and Forums, I would have sworn that I had never experienced Sleep Paralysis before an OBE, but reading many of my fellow travelers` posts made me realize that in truth, possibly, I had.   In fact, what I have just described in the very first paragraph of this article was, in all probability, exactly `it`. Or, at least, a version of it.  

The fact that I had never felt paralyzed, not once, neither completely nor partially, and that I had never heard loud noises or had any vibrations/buzzing of any sort had been keeping me off-target, but now, with all my new friends` experiences to learn from, I knew better.

I could see how the darkness and the feeling of being pinned down was exactly what most people were also describing in their experiences. My own personal experience may have been a bit uncharacteristic , but at the end of the day, we were describing the same phenomenon.

The only thing that seemed to make a difference was that for some reason I was fighting it so hard that, as a result, I was always moving, if only by inches, so that I never regarded myself as in a state of paralysis at all.

I don’t know how unusual /rare it is for a newcomer, like I was ten years ago, not to have Sleep Paralysis, vibrations or sounds of any kind, yet by now I know there are many more like me.

 Oh! how I would have loved to find in all those books I bought years ago at least some paragraphs dedicated to experiences like mine, that is, not totally orthodox.

It would have saved me for certain many a troubled nights.  🙂

 

 

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